I used to look at you Like a fireplace in a living room I was the tired face lying next to you How are you? Now I have different words when I talk to you And different faces to look at you Some are tidal waves, some are "How are you, I miss you" But I don't wanna think about it at all (I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't) I don't wanna think about it at all (I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't) I don't, ohh oh ohh I don't, ohh oh ohh I don't, ohh oh ohh I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, oh I used to think of death as staying the same But I used to look at you without feeling this way Your mom's phone call felt like a get-well card I think it's my fault I don't wanna think about it at all (I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't) I don't wanna think about it at all (I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't)

I woke up and I smelled like you You woke up and I could tell that you weren't happy So I walked to the deli I don't wanna make my bed for anyone I don't wanna spread my legs for anyone I like to make my breakfast alone Walk myself to the store, and then back to the porch But you liked my green nail polish And I liked your sharp black mullet It wasn't love, but I don't know what to call it Oh oh oh ohhh oh oh ohhh oh oh ohhh oh ohh oh Oh oh oh ohhh oh oh ohhh oh oh ohhh oh ohh oh You can kiss me just so you can read my texts every five minutes And reread all the ones you sent to make sure that you meant them You can kiss me just to miss me later You can kiss me just so you feel better

With your sunglasses on and your feet in the creek I would not go around here if you were not here with me And I'm assembled this way in the space here, don't take There's no legible south I can evoke when you go away Life was not bad with tall cans and hold hands You're my best friend and I need you, do you know that? With your overalls on and your feet in the creek An assemblage of moments of when you wanted me And I evoked you today, with my feet in the creek As if you'd feel something shake you, as if you'd think of me And say Life was not bad with tall cans and hold hands You're my best friend and I need you, do you know that?

Wet my face in the bathroom Try and shave off the he that you speak onto me if I have to I can shriek at a pitch more dissonant Sometimes I have to Like when I left your apartment In my shorts and knee high socks Wet faced, red eyed, and hair tied Riled up as a beehive It's a long life, I can't get it right You can't be whole When you look inside you'll find more of your problems And I need you around Like the ground needs a figure just to be something at all It's a long life, I can't get it right It's a long life, I can't get it right It's a long life, I can't get it right It's a long life, I can't get it right It's a long life, it will waste you in return It's a long life, it will waste you in return It's a long life, it will waste you in return It's a long life, it will waste you in return I like your house Trees bend and tire swing in your backyard Your mom went out To smoke and I could tell that you're worried about her It's a long life, it's hard to get it right I dirge for each "I don't have the time for you" And I dirge for the way that I am going by And I dirge for each 2 o' clock just waking up Oh long life, how is it that you go by

The love is gone if you have to ask it There will be no sap tapped from a casket There will be no hands held through the last of it No hands clasped and [?] on mattresses The love is gone like eggs in a basket Reading old text threads, covering the date with my thumb Pretending that you just wrote "I love you, when are you coming home?"

When the dirge is done And my body is still my body Well not a legible one Why don't you comfort me? I know my heart is a window in the dark to you Why don't you comfort me, oh Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah When the loom is gone I wanna shriek at a pitch so dissonant All the rafters will fall Why don't you comfort me? Why don't you comfort me? Why don't you comfort me? Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah You can battering ram this life Felix, you can bettering ram this life You can battering ram this life Did you know that you can battering ram this life

I am not a tsunami, so don't look at me that way I wanna be a good sky on a bad day And today was a bad day I want someone to grab my face Tuck my hair behind my ears And say Isn't this silly and aren't you beautiful (Isn't this silly and aren't you beautiful) Isn't this silly and aren't you beautiful (Isn't this silly and aren't you beautiful) And I don't know how to talk to you Without a can in my hands, oh oh ohhh And without a can in your hands, oh oh ohhh And with all these people around, oh oh ohhh And when we're by ourselves, oh oh ohhh Oh oh ohhh, oh oh ohhh, oh oh ohhh Oh oh ohhh Isn't this silly and aren't you beautiful (Isn't this silly and aren't you beautiful) Isn't this silly and aren't you beautiful (Isn't this silly and aren't you beautiful)

The interstate trees and parking lot weeds divide the concrete What divides us Is between you and me And I can't stay here cause I will not grow like parking lot weeds What divides us Is what fucks me up I, I I, I'm so delicate when you're around I, I I, I'm so delicate when you're around You can freeze me right here on the passenger side unless you want me to drive Oh, raindrops collide on the passenger side, I watch them go by I also go by What divides us I also go by What divides us I, I I, I'm so delicate when you're around I, I I, I'm so delicate when you're around I wanna battering ram this life When I go by What do I go by When you go By

Talking used to pass the time And smoking used to pass the time But talking became a waste of time And smoking became a waste of time And my life became a pantomime Of my life when I liked to be alive You got a new sweater But I didn't know til I saw it in a picture My life stayed the same But you wouldn't know cause I never take pictures And I don't understand why you're living there And I don't understand your sweater Ohhhhh, ohhhhh, ohhhhh, ohhhhh I wanna move to the woods by the side of the highway Where I can watch the deer spent their last living minutes But I, I I I, stopped wearing my bomber jacket When I, I I I, realized that I was little And I, I I I, stopped wearing my navy peacoat When I, I I I, realized my thoughts were ugly And I, I I I, don't understand your sweater And I, I I I, don't understand why you're living there

Big hearted me Floating by you on ice skates Vodka mixed in pink lemonade So much love without higher stakes Wappingers Creek Looking for turtles in the murk by the fallen tree Water makes waves on my ankles I wanna thank you for assembling me Oh, Wappingers Creek Where my sister threw your ashes off the dam And I threw rose petals after them We got dinner after that, and went to bed

Ash filled mountain top gunshots Sound like cannon balls, cannon balls, sinking boats And ohhh, I was sinking so I was thinking about whether I'd rather go Like the animals, animals, shot below Or my family, family, slow, slow, slow And it got hot so suddenly We were cannon balls into our swimming holes With our socks and our shoes on the rocks I was thinking oh Isn't this silly and aren't you beautiful So why are we treating eachother like animals